The Ending

As my first semester of college comes to a close I am seeing things in a new light. I am doing things in a new light. Yet at the same time with all of these changes I have still managed to remain myself through them all. I have learned a lot since I have been here at TLU, both inside the classroom and outside of the classroom. My time outside of the classroom has been just as beneficial if not more beneficial to my life at this point. Things that were once there in my life no longer come easy, and I no longer have my dad to just get me or buy me whatever I want. I have learned the responsibility of money and saving money every chance I get. I have also learned the value of my hard work. Between working three jobs in the summer and generous scholarships, I was able to pay off my first semester of college without the help of my dad. Though unimpressive to some, this task wasn't easy for me and it required a lot of dedication on my part to continue working. Though it would have been easier to allow my dad to pay for my education, I didn't feel right asking so of him. Since I have been here, my maturity level has gone up and down and right back up. I'll admit it, I have done some really stupid things since I have been here and there is no undoing something once it is already done. And because of the fact that I cant undo things I try to live my life without any regrets because there is no use wasting time pondering over the woulda, coulda, shouldas' in life.

I always told myself that distance away from my family would do me well, that the time would put my relationship with them into perspective and I was absolutely correct. As independent of a person I am, it takes distance and time apart for me to comprehend how much I relied on my family without even realizing it. The distance with my family has made me grateful for them and has shown me how much I miss them. As I write this final post, for the first time since I have been away from home I began to feel a little home sick. Its a weird feeling, especially when its coming from me. Its one that I don't like to admit ever because I feel like it would show weakness in me to rely on a person or a group of people. The matter of fact is that my family however irritating they may be are my rocks and foundation.