The Ever Confusing Relationships

Ah relationships, the one area in life everyone is a pro at, that is until it comes to their own relationships! Half the time I wonder if people especially myself, knows how to have a positive, functional relationship. That's just the thing every relationship is disfunctional at some point in time. Some make it past the chaos of the disfunction while others perish in the mist of everything. Looking back I have had relationships die that I though would last a lifetime, but instead lasted only a few months. Relationships that I viewed as important at the time, I look back on now and realize that I was strongly mistaken. My family relationship is one that is difficult to describe and one that I prefer not to talk about. We have been through ups and downs that seemed life ending at the time. I reflect on the crap that I put my family through when I was to stubborn to listen to anyone else besides myself. You see, when your in high school though it sounds shallow, the only that matters is friends and fitting in. My senior year in high school, I guess you could say I was feeling a little (a lot) rebellious. I did things that pushed my family away that caused them to view me in a different light. I would stay out later than normal, hang out with people I KNEW wouldn't land me anywhere but in trouble. Yet I still did it because I was to stubborn and blinded by my own actions, thoughts and ideas of "fitting in." The thing is the relationships I had with my so called friends are no longer here, most lasted a few month then we went our separate ways. Now that high school has ended, I remain friends with two people that I use to hangout with. These two people are my best friends that helped me get through high school and ultimately helped me find what was important to me, so it makes sense as to why I still talk to them. The one thing I have learned is that my family means the world to me. They have caused me pain and I the same, but we always seem to be there for each other. I'm not going to sugar coat it and say my family is the easiest of  people to talk to because they aren't. They irritate me beyond words, but when I need something they are here.